I am relatively new to the blogging world.  I find it a strange thing to “meet” others and share deep thoughts with people you’ve never met.  And yet, this blogging thing is completely addictive.  So much so that I’ve decided I need to only blog when my child is sleeping.  Otherwise, I will feel guilty the rest of my life for not being a very attentive mom.  Not sure God would give me much leeway on that one.  (“But Lord, I was blogging!”)

The really challenging part so far in the 12 days that I have been blogging is finding my own voice.  I read very witty and funny bloggers, like Kat and BooMama who make me laugh out loud.  It makes me want to be witty and funny myself.   It makes me want to write about topics that will be entertaining to others.  It makes me want to be profoundly amusing to my audience.  But I have found that I’m really not that type of writer. 

The fact is, I’m not sure what kind of writer I am.

I think the real problem with this beginning blogger, and perhaps others like myself, is that I am striving to be something I’m not.  I’m trying to be someone other than just myself.  Not that I can’t be funny or entertaining.  That’s not the point.  I am learning that I just need to be my true self.

It’s interesting, isn’t it, how real-life issues manifest themselves in something as simple as a blog.  If we were really honest, many of us struggle with the desire to be someone who we think will be accepted and approved by others, rather than just being ourselves.  It stems from an insecure place in our hearts that only God Himself can heal.  God, continue to heal me!

On a moment to moment basis, I don’t consider myself to be profound all the time.  But this blog is a good place to think my deep thoughts.  So if this is your first time reading my blog, I hope you’re not scared away.  Come back and think deep thoughts with me!

And while you’re here, feel free to leave any tips you might have for a new blogger!